a new month full of change and progress

Hello, August.  Every year I wish this month would fly by so the Fall will be here sooner.
This year I am embracing each new month. I am going to enjoy every last day of Summer.
I want August to be a productive and memorable month. We are planning on moving in the next few months so there is so much to do around this house of ours.

Since becoming a mom, I've struggled with some identity issues. I have lost track of my goals and desires outside of being a mommy. Being a mom is the best job I have ever had and I am still working on being the mom my son needs me to be. I am still learning the ropes and I have a long way to go before I am, "mom of the year". I can confidently say I am trying my best and doing my research. I am always searching for other moms that inspire me. Moms that resemble the mom I always wish I had.
Outside of being a great mom, I always saw myself doing other big things. I always pictured myself being a superstar mom while pursuing my dreams and helping others.  What are those dreams? What other things do I want to do? How will I serve my community while serving my family?

I'm lost.  I just don't know those answers anymore. I thought I knew and now I know I'm not sure.
I am a registered nurse and I have a bachelor's degree.  I could get a new job.  That would mean spending less time with my family since, right now, I only work 3 weekends a month. That wouldn't help.  I could go back to school and get my master's degree. But, in what?  Would it matter? What "dream job" would I be working towards? I don't think a degree can get me my dream job.        what is my dream job?

So, I've established I am not sure what I'm doing most days. I have no routine and no schedule. I have no short term and long term goals that I am working towards right now. No focus.  What is my focus?  Why do I do the things I do each day? Why do I act the way I act? What is the big picture?
I wasn't sure what direction to turn.
Lucky for me, I accidentally stumbled upon Lara Casey one day on Instagram. I have been following her for a few months now and have been hearing amazing things about her "PowerSheets".  So, after talking myself out of buying them for dumb reasons, I went ahead and took the plunge.
They came in the mail over the weekend and I am SO excited. Like, Christmas morning excited.
I have not started writing yet but today is my day.   I am ready to focus on my goals and dreams. [whatever they may be] I am praying for direction and grace in this process, I am looking for inspiration and trying to stay positive and give myself some credit. I can be so cruel to myself. I sometimes treat myself way worse than I would ever treat another person. I realize that and am working on many changes.
Changes.  Positive changes.     I'm ready to start today.