Guess who's back?

I cannot believe it's been over a year since I last wrote on here.

I don't think I was even pregnant with my second when I wrote my last post.

Geez, since 2013, a lot has changed. I've been blessed more than I could ever imagine. [Even if I fail to realize it at times]
I now have an incredible new little boy to love on, Theodore "Teddy" Andrew Ryan. He is 9 months now and getting bigger by the second. Our firstborn, Alexander, will be turning 3 this weekend. What? 3? Yes, 3.
We live in a different house [renting] while still trying to get rid of our old house. That is too long of a story for this blog. My husband's business has changed. A lot. He has a different focus and really, a new confident attitude to go along with it. It is inspiring to watch and I am a very proud wife.
I left my old job that caused me stress and anxiety and joined an awesome new company. I am still a homecare nurse but it is a very different job. I love my manager, coworkers, and clients. I was actually considering taking on a larger role within the company until... my mom became hospitalized in December 2014.  She was in the hospital for 8 weeks and just came out last week. She was very sick, both physically and mentally. She is slowly on the mend but has a long way to go.  I made the tough decision to move her from being an hour away to 10 minutes away. I am an only child and the only person that is able to care for her. I have my own family to take care of so the only way to do everything was to move her closer to me. It has been quite a transition for everyone and we continue to work through the kinks. I am in the process of managing her finances, helping her retire, bringing her to numerous procedures and Dr appointments regularly, and reminding her to check her blood sugar and take her medicine. It has definitely been a lifestyle change for my family. Considering I only talked to my mom about 2 times a year before, seeing her everyday is something new for me that I am still getting used to. I have to pray daily for patience and grace. Although I'm a nurse, it is tough caring for my own mom. I continue to work on forgiveness and understanding every day.  

Whew, it feels good to get all of that down on "paper".

Lots of exciting things are happening and I am ready to have a great and prosperous 2015!

I am still working on my "goals" list for this year. I am going to start by trying to remind myself everyday that I don't need to be perfect.    That is hard.        
I need to start giving myself a break. I need to let go of the unrealistically high expectations I set for myself. As a wife. A mom. A daughter. A Christian. A friend.
And just live life fully.  Be present in the moment.  Stop getting in my own way.
I am going to start today.